:: crazy/beautiful ::

:: Tuesday, January 29, 2002 ::

Yeah I haven't written in awhile. Whoops. Well I went back to school last saturday. Of course something had to happen that night so right off the bat I was off my game. Now I'm so confused about everything going on with my wonderful neighbor "friend". Well he told me that he's confused too so it's okay, but I just hope I'm not being stupid. Wow that made no sense to even ME but it's okay.

Okay so it's like 20 minutes later and I just got off the phone with Angie and realized I HAVE to go to bed right now so I'll continue this rambling mess later. Oh yeah and IM JPerry007 and tell him you love him :-)
:: Erica 11:14 PM [+] ::
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Hmmmmmmmm....."A Walk To Remember" or as our friend Sue suggested "A Walk To Forget"???? yeah, sue was definitely right. What a fucking horrible ending! Mandy Moore was cute tho....
:: Joseph 11:14 AM [+] ::
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Did I ever mention that I hate relationships? Yes. Did I ever mention how I went to a psychic in NYC and she told me that either the guy I was with was "the one" OR I would have bad luck in relationships for the rest of my life b/c of bad karma. Hmmm a little daunting if you ask me. And it's like I would have had to stay with my now ex forever or be miserable for the rest of my life. Of course I decided to fly in the face of destiny when I broke up with him a couple months later.....so I think the curse is currently being fulfilled. What sucks though is that at some points I randomly think "what if she was right?"
:: Erica 3:58 PM [+] ::
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I just talked to someone I haven't talked to since last summer. Of course last summer it was in real life and this time it was online but that's besides the point. The point is that I hate when there are hot as hell people in your life sometimes, and you forget about them most of the time because you dont' see them but once in awhile when you aren't expecting it you get to see them or talk to them and you get that rush of feeling. You feel so good for the 2 seconds you talk to them and then it's gone. Now this person I used to absolutely love and it didn't help that he lived next to me for 7 years and used to come over ALL the time. It also didn't help that he's the biggest player I know. But we're still cool with each other even after not talking for awhile so I guess it's all good. I just wish I could stop being attracted to him :(
:: Erica 2:06 PM [+] ::
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Don't you hate it when your ex stalks you online and unblocks you just when he's going out with other people like it's not obvious at all what he's doing? And then he reblocks you, making you even MORE frustrated and then stalks you once more. Oh yours doesn't do that? Well MINE SHOULDN'T EITHER. Ahhhh I have enough problems trying to get over you Nate, so don't make it worse please. If you want to talk to me, then talk to me. If not, then don't spend time trying to make me mad, it isn't worth it.

On a happier note: congrats are in order for Russell Crowe, Jennifer Garner, and the 3 Golden Globes that Moulin Rouge won!!!
:: Erica 11:53 PM [+] ::
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It's been a very cool weekend. I think I'll tell all about it....

Friday afternoon I went to Naz to visit Angie. I won't be able to see her for awhile so I thought it would be cool to go. Dave wanted to go out to eat at Mykenos (probably spelled wrong) but it's a Greek restaurant in Rochester. So I went there to eat with Angie, Kris, Dave, and 5 other people. I'm a wuss and I don't really like Greek food so I just got a steak sandwich. I DID try a grape leaf at Dave's insistance and liked it though, I consider that a success. After dinner we went to Wegmans so we could get drinks before the mixer. I wanted to try Corona b/c Dave said it was good so me and Kris got that. I liked it and drank a few and then got a little too happy and talked to about half of the Naz campus. Then we went to the mixer but only for about an hour. I also met 2 guys, who I called "Rocky" and "30 year old guy". The 30 year old guy's real name was Kevin but apparently I thought he looked old or something and started calling him that to his face. He was really just 21. Rocky was kinda scary and told me I was the "perfect girl" so I stayed away from him. Angie and I went to Chris' room after the mixer and talked to him and Andrew. I was still a little drunk at the time and started talking to them about Stacey Keebler "of the Keebler Elves" and smoking bed posts. Then we went to bed.

The next day we woke up at 1:00 and tried to go to lunch but apparently we were lazy b/c we didn't make it out of Angie's room til 4:30. So 5 of us went out to dinner instead. We tried to go to Red Lobster, then Bahama Breeze, then FINALLY we ended up at Don Pablos b/c that was the only place without a 2 hour wait. After dinner we went to see a comedian called "Tiny Glover" who was funny as hell. I decided to go home after that, I was a little sleepy from friday night.

Tonight, Sunday, the Golden Globes are on. They aren't as good as the Oscars but I still get to see Hugh and Russell so it's all good. Wrapping things up (b/c I have to eat dinner and I"m STARVING), I had a GREAT time at Naz (thanks Ang and the rest of ya'll) and I'm in a good mood!!
:: Erica 5:22 PM [+] ::
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Wow Joe you actually decided to post?? I thought you had boycotted our blog together and left me to fend for myself. It's good to hear from ya.

I was gonna write about how I don't really like where my relationship with my dad is and that I always feel not entirely comfortable around him but I don't really feel like it plus it's probably boring. I will write about how excited I am that I FINALLY get a real cell phone (yes I'm behind the times TONY) tomorrow. I also get to visit Angie at Naz friday and I just saw her but I can't wait to see her again!! I get to give her 2 suitemates piano lessons and that'll be fun too.

I watched the new Real World tonight with Joe...sounds very promising. I like all the sex stuff. No I'm not a whore, sex just interests me. Ummm yeah on that note...
:: Erica 1:34 AM [+] ::
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Don't ever watch "Urbania" if you are already depressed...it won't help your mood.
:: Joseph 12:21 AM [+] ::
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And another one! Yay for this being an all about Erica blog....

My buddy Sjene came to see me today!!!! I'm so happy b/c she is SO COOL as I think I already mentioned. She got online and asked if I wanted to get lunch. I thought she didn't realize that she lived AN HOUR away from me but apparently that didn't bother her, and we hung out in Geneva. It's so weird that some people you can just connect with right away and some you can't. Sjene is definitely one of those connections and I'm so happy that she came down today. I just wish she didn't leave Geneseo *tear*
:: Erica 11:48 PM [+] ::
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Apparently I'm blogging like crazy lately.....must be the whole emotional breakdown once a month syndrome.

Today was a fun day (well for the most part). I was with Angie from 3 in the afternoon til 1:30 at night and we had so much fun!!! We stalked many people, and OF COURSE the one person I dont' stalk anymore we see anyway totally randomly which actually freaked me the hell out b/c it was so random. Make sense? Probably not...

So what DID Angie and I do today? We went to Canadaigua to go on some errands and check out the Wegmans scene, then we went to the Outlet Mall, then we went to Uncle Joe's for dinna, then we went to Wegmans (in Geneva this time), then we went to the movies to see KATE AND LEOPOLD ohhh yeah, then we went to Joe's house. That was the play by play of my day....leaving out the part where I saw my ex for the 1st time in forever and the part where I cried on the way home b/c I heard Everything I Do the best song ever in the world. Why did I cry? A compilation of everything and my STUPID body hormones arrrrrgh.
:: Erica 2:18 AM [+] ::
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Just to clarify since Joe said this was kind of unclear.....last night I meant that I missed Nate a lot, not Travis. Although I do miss Travis, I was talking about Nate. Thank you and good night.
:: Erica 1:34 AM [+] ::
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I hate relationships.....Travis has the right frikken idea. Me and Nate broke up in October...I decided to bury most of my feelings at that time and pretend it really didn't bother me. Maybe it's that I don't have anyone else right now, maybe it's my period coming, maybe it's the Friends episode I saw tonight....but god dammit I miss him so much sometimes. Tonight I'm fighting not to email him. I don't even have anything to say, yet I was thinking about it anyway. Grrrrr I should just swear off relationships.....yeaaah like that would happen.

On a lighter note, some friends came to hang out tonight and it was fun!! Angie was here which is always good and my cousin who I barely hang out with came over too. We played some cards and had a grand ole time. Two people out of the group were 21 also yet we didn't drink, that intrigued me. I have much of it on video, but I think Joe, Sue, and I are gonna change that...muuhhaahaha.
:: Erica 2:44 AM [+] ::
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WOW I'm a little behind in this thing.....

Joe I think that was a very nice blog about Nate in your other thing, I'm really glad you realized what was going on and that things were messed up. I just hope he forgives us both.

Anyway, ANGIE IS HOME!!!! It's so exciting, she is my other best friend that I never get to see b/c she lives in Michigan (she just moved there) and shes' home for 5 days before she goes back to school. I love her so much and it's great to be able to hang out with her again. I just wish she was here longer.

Hmm this is a boring blog....but I don't have much to say. I bought Someone Like You today, of course I do have to own every single movie Hugh Jackman has made and my American Collection is now complete (except Kate and Leopold). I fully intend on buying all his Australian movies when I go down there also. Grrr okay so my mind is not thinking right now, maybe I'll post more tomororow or something.
:: Erica 12:54 AM [+] ::
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Hmmmmm....you know life is sucky when your dad is nicer to his dogs than his own son sometimes....
:: Joseph 11:33 AM [+] ::
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Yesterday or something Erica told me that i'm a very strong person. Not physically, emotionally. I thought it was a nice compliment, but i also don't know if it's true....
:: Joseph 7:16 PM [+] ::
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I'm posting a lot lately I guess...maybe Joe just isn't writing enough. I'm wondering lately why there is such a difference in my emotions from day to night. It's so strange. It's like the nighttime heightens anything I might be feeling at the time. Sometime's I'm uncontrollably happy at night and sometimes I'm really depressed.

Well anyway, tonight is one of my depressed nights. I think it's because I watched Kate and Leopold last night. I'm totally in love with Hugh Jackman and he was absolutely perfect in that movie. We were gonna watch When Harry Met Sally last night too which would have put me TOTALLY over the edge. Damn Meg Ryan movies to hell! I just tend to think, after seeing those movies, that I'm never going to have that perfect guy that always seems to exist in movies. I've even begun semi-missing my ex which is not a good thing because we fought constantly in the short period he was actually speaking to me after I broke up with him. This guy was practically perfect, and I was a bitch to him. Then the next guy I like isn't a "relationship" kinda guy....well okay that's cool but I'm a relationship kinda girl so that leaves me still looking. I shouldn't complain so much I guess, I've had some really good relationships and offers from really nice guys, so maybe I should just shut up.

Whatever...thanks for listening to my nonsense.
:: Erica 11:32 PM [+] ::
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Someone's a little assholish....maybe people DO care about my life, it's more interesting than yours..oooh that was harsh.

Anyway, I always try to write stuff at night b/c that's when I feel the most profound, but it seems to never happen. So I guess I'll write some stuff now. New Years Eve was fun, I was gonna hang out/get drunk with Joe, but he was being weird so I decided to go to a party in Canadaigua at a friend's cottage. We had soooo much alcohol there and it was awesome. That's what happens when I party with 21 year olds, right? So we all got trashed and watched the ball drop, it was beautiful. What wasn't beautiful was the fact that I didn't sleep AT ALL until I got home the next morning at 10. And I had to go to my grandma's for a party at 5...not cool. I almost fell asleep on her couch.

But I'm all caught up on sleep now and I get to go out to the great city of Rochester tonight. I'm so excited b/c I get to see Kate and Leopold, and Hugh Jackman is absolutely the hottest thing on this planet.

Oh yeah, video cameras are mad fun. Maybe Joe and I are just awesome film makers, but we definitely crack ourselves up with that thing.

:: Erica 2:02 PM [+] ::
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Hmmmmm had fun with Erica and a video camera today... yeah it's not what you think!
:: Joseph 12:11 AM [+] ::
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erica, you say things like people actually care about your life............. =)
:: Joseph 1:32 AM [+] ::
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Stop with the porn talk pleeease.....

I have much to say, but no time to say it in. I didn't get to sleep until 10 this morning, which means I'm SO FUCKING TIRED right now I could fall asleep right here. That's why I'm putting off my ramblings, but don't worry folks....you'll have things to read tomorrow.


:: Erica 10:52 PM [+] ::
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